Every once in a while, during those first heady days after the birth of my first child, I'd catch myself staring at her, trancelike, marveling at everylittle thing she did. Of course, it would be quite a while before she actually did anything truly remarkable, but somehow, I found everything miraculous,from the smell of her hair and her delicate hands (complete with outrageously sharp fingernails), to the snarfles and soft breathing when she was awake andthe look of pure peace when she slept.
Dad in Training
After a few days of this, I was snapped out of my reverie by a sharp jolt of reality: There was a lot more to being a dad than just looking at my baby. IfI really wanted to build the kind of relationship with her that I'd dreamed of, I was going to have to get in there and get my hands dirty (metaphorically,of course. I'd already done a ton of diaper changing...). The problem was that, never having spent much time around babies, I had absolutely no idea whatto do. Not being one to ask for help (I know, I know, it's a guy thing), there was really only one way to learn what I needed to learn. So I closed myeyes, took a deep breath, and jumped in.
Within minutes, I had an important epiphany: Since my daughter was just as clueless as I was, she was incredibly forgiving. Over the first few weeks of herlife I made dozens of mistakes (none life- or health-threatening, I'm happy to say). But I also discovered a few simple ways of interacting with her thatshe really seemed to enjoy.
The Power of Touch
The first discovery was that she loved it when I held her. She generally preferred my arms, but after they went numb and my back startedaching, she was perfectly happy in a baby carrier. She also loved it when I talked to her. At first I felt a little silly about the whole thing — sheclearly had no idea what I was saying — but my voice seemed to soothe her. I'd tell her about my day, about what was happening in the news, and what wewere seeing when we went out for walks.
One important piece of advice:Because babies' heads are relatively large and their neck muscles aren't very well developed, their heads tend to be pretty floppy for the first fewmonths. So it's critical to be sure to support your baby's head — from behind — at all times, and to avoid sudden or jerky motions.
The Diaper Drill
Another major discovery was that changing her diapers was actually a great way for the two of us to connect. It also gave me an opportunity to rub her softbelly, tickle her knees, and kiss her tiny fingers.
Playing and Growing
Like a lot of new dads, I didn't know much about child development. And I was, frankly, a little disappointed when I found out it would be a long, longtime before my daughter would be able to play catch with me. But I learned fairly early on that there were other ways to play with her. I read stories,played peek-a-boo, made faces, and even gently rolled around on the floor with her. The more encouraging I was —whether it was verbally or with smiles andlaughter — the more she liked it. But her attention span was shorter than I thought (or hoped) it would be. Five minutes or so was her limit. After that,she'd start crying or fussing, or simply look at me like she was bored out of her mind.
Thinking back on all this with a few years of distance, it was definitely a little scary — and there's no shortage of "shoulda, coulda, woulda." I knowthat what my daughter and I did together when she was a baby has made a huge difference in my relationship with her.